Program Note

…still trying to make ends meet… is the first piece I wrote after deciding to start referring to myself as a composer (rather than just a performer), and the piece is very much about my internal struggle over how I defined myself at that time. Over the years that I have been performing the work, the piece has evolved, in both the way I play it
and the way I think about it. From a playing perspective, I work my way though the material much faster than
I used to (many sections are of open duration) and play much more aggressively. In early performances, there was much more time for contemplation and rest. From a philosophical standpoint, I now view the piece as being much more about the constant struggle to find balance in my day to day life. I also think that this work will continue to change in the future, and may never actually reach final point of completion.